Why I hate people in general part-1

Every now and then I come across people who care or pretend to care about me enough to try and understand the complicated (you have been warned) person that I am. As touching as this 'bonding' experience tries to be it only serves to alienate me from the human population even further..

Acceptance is something I've always sought to receive. But I've reached a point in my life where i just don't care anymore. The point where I've woken up and taken a good hard look at the people who hold my "approval form" in their hands. The judging panel that shuns and alienates people who are even slightly different from the crowd at large. People all around are so self absorbed, I'm amazed at how they manage to get along with others who're probably self obsessed too anyways..

Wanna know what else is cool? Its amazing how everything that falls from my mouth manages to sound like a sob story when it should have the entirely opposite effect. Sympathy is the last thing I'm looking for..
Geeez!

damn them humans..

So this is where I am right now- in this very uncomfortable claustrophobic situation better defined as an ''excuse me-super crowded-squished-sorry-i-stepped-on-your-toe-sorry-i- elbowed-your-nose'' kinda situation that I'm desperate to get out of.. its not even a situation...
its more of an observation, a realization...
The complexity of the human race is overwhelmingly awesome.. like in AWESOME! long and stretched out.. not the word people use to fake pleasure/approval.
Most days I’m just amazed at how every person I meet manages to lower the stupidity bar by a hundredfold. But then there are days when people I interact with have me staring after them in awe.
The whole spectrum, from the super intelligent to the ones you can barely term 'civilized' ; the whole co-existence thing is awesome. Understatement of the year, I know!
Co-existence..ha! its more like patience to bear with the rest, personally I just want to blow up everyone in sight..
Our hopefully *praying hard* dormant inbuilt potential- (the true true potential) to build up and destroy things in a blink of an eye terrifies me. Quite a creature there, Man, rather intimidating.

No these aren't the memoirs of a cat/dog or any other animal who observe humans because they're fun to watch. So before I get to the part where I whine about how my masters don’t love me and feed me enough... I’m signing out..

And heyy! *defensive* This started with a full 20 minute stare at the screen.. and then just noncohesive rambling which is the purpose of my blog anyway.

PS: for the highly inquisitive, the 20 minute stare came after a 15 minute stare trying to remember my password.
Blogging sure is hard work.
And a definite cause for blindness.
Heres to losing my sight super soon.

peace..